A conversation I wish I could have

The following story is not a conversation. It’s more of a wish for a conversation. I know it is filled with grammatical errors and the sentences don’t vary much. There’s a lot of “he” and “she” but I like it being generic. I think a lot of us may be able to relate. Life sure would be easier if everyone would just be honest and shoot for the stars…
       She bit her lip and looked at him from across the room.
       There was a time she thought he might ask her out. That awkward moment by the elevator. When he walked her to her car. But it never did happen.
       Maybe that was for the best. That was a different season in her life where she was not sure what she had wanted or what she could have had.
       This season she did know what she wanted, but she still did not know what she could have.
       He had shown that he was interested in dating, but dating others. Women he had met briefly and connected with. He had probably not felt instantly connected with her. She had been busy when they met. She did not converse well with others meeting them for the first time even if she had not been busy. But over the years, she had gotten to know him and see how well their lives would fit together. She could also see that he did not see that.
      He saw her as a child. He saw what he knew about her and did not seem able to imagine that there was more. He knew what he needed to, but not what she wanted him to. If he knew how artistic she was. If he could understand her life. The struggles she had been through, her joys, her feelings, what her life had been made of.
      But she felt too shy to even try to show it to him. How to you ask a friend you are not too close to for his opinion on your work? Or how could she lead a conversation into a direction that would show who she is when she barely added to the conversation? How could she get his attention when he was distracted by meeting new people.
      She turned her head away and went over to a group of friends.
      Even if he were to ask her out, she was again unsure how she would respond. He would have to do his duty as a man and pursue her. He would have to show that he was interested in her life and cared about her. She had felt small enough not being in a relationship. She was not going to be in a relationship where he did not prove that he thought she is amazing and worth it. He would have to prove himself worthy of her, even if she did like him.