I want to feel

I want to feel

I want to feel real

to know my life is real

know it really means something

I want to feel loved

not just told I’m loved

I want it proven beyond a doubt

so I will never forget that moment

that it was proven to me

I want to feel more

more than myself

more than what I’ve felt

more than I can hold inside

I want to explode

I want everything I’ve held inside

to become my outside

I want to share it all

I want to let go

to stop pretending

that I’m the one

in control

I want to feel like myself

not who I think I should be

not who I want to be

not who others want me to be

but simply me

I want to allow myself to feel

to feel everything

to feel nothing

to be everything

to be nothing

to hold it all

with open hands

and not cry

when it flies away